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Ascended Master Mother Mary through Kim Michaels, August 2, 2024. This dictation was given at a Healing Retreat in Chicago: Heal your heart and the heart of America.

I AM the Ascended Master Mother Mary, and it is with great joy that I welcome all of you who are here physically and all of you who are tuned in via this wonderful invention of the internet. So, greetings from my heart and the heart of all of us, all of us who are going to speak, all of us who are supporting this gathering and the goal of clearing the heart of both yourselves and of this nation of the United States, which is not so united right now because the heart has taken a back seat for too many people to either the other chakras or to the thinking, linear, analytical, judging mind.

The heart chakra and the secret chamber of the heart

What is the heart? Well, when we talk about clearing the heart, we are of course not primarily talking about the physical heart, even though there is of course, as you just saw in this invocation you gave, there is a connection between the physical heart and the emotional, mental and identity bodies and of course the heart chakra. The heart chakra and the physical heart are very closely related and quite frankly, you can see a correlation between the frequency of heart diseases that you see in society and the closing of people’s heart chakras. This for most people happened many years ago and I am in no way trying to blame anyone. It is very, very difficult to be in embodiment on a dense planet like earth and be exposed to such severe trauma such as war or many other physical traumas without having the heart chakra close up. But why is that? Why is it that the heart chakra closes when people are exposed to trauma, whether it is physical trauma or psychological trauma? Well, that is what I wish to discourse on.

For what is then the heart chakra? Well, you know of course that it is the center of the seven chakras, three above it, three below it. There are various teachings out there that talk about the flow of the Kundalini energy from the base chakra to the crown, but truly nothing can flow between the chakras without involving the heart chakra. And why is that? It is because the heart chakra is the open door between the I Am Presence and the Conscious You and the four lower bodies. Now, some teachings say that it is the crown chakra because it is the highest, but this is actually not what we of the Ascended Masters teach.

The heart chakra is where the light from your I Am Presence enters. We have in previous teachings given the image of the threefold flame in the heart that springs from the white fire, but of course there is in reality a sevenfold flame in the heart representing all of the chakras. But as a part of progressive revelation, we often do not give the most advanced teaching to begin with because it is overwhelming to people at the time. So, there truly is a replica of each of the chakras in the heart chakra. And of course, many of you are familiar with the concept that there is a secret chamber of the heart. And this is actually, really you can look at it as not being a separate chakra because it is interlinked with the heart chakra, yet it is separate in the sense that even if the heart chakra closes or even if it takes in impurities, this will not affect the secret chamber of the heart. Nothing from earth, nothing from below, nothing from the outside can enter or pollute the secret chamber. That is why in previous dispensations it has been called the secret chamber. Because it is secret to those who are in the anti-christ consciousness—in the state of duality and separation. They cannot even see it and therefore they cannot direct anything against it. So, becoming more aware of this secret chamber of the heart is important for opening the heart chakra. Yet, this represents somewhat of an enigma for us because while your heart chakra is closed, how can you be aware of the secret chamber of the heart chakra? If your heart chakra is closed, how can you see what is behind it? I will therefore begin by talking about the heart chakra itself.

Now as I said, the light from your I AM Presence enters the secret chamber of the heart then goes into the heart chakra. In an ideal situation, the light is then distributed from the heart chakra to the other chakras. But when you close the heart, there is of course a very reduced amount of energy flowing out of the heart to the other chakras, which means that when you close the heart, you are also at least partially closing the other chakras. And there really is, I was tempted to say, no point in seeking to cleanse the other chakras until you have cleansed the heart, but this is not entirely the case. You can gain progress by working on the other chakras. But if you really want to clear your chakras, it is the fastest way to start with the heart chakra. Now I know we have not always done that in teachings such as for example the Course in Self-Mastery, where we of course start with the throat chakra that corresponds with the First Ray and then work our way up. But for the purpose of this teaching that we are giving at this conference about clearing the heart, we will start by focusing on the heart chakra, and clearing the heart and thereby making it easier to clear the other chakras.

Defense mechanism in the heart

Now why is it that when you are exposed to this trauma, you close the heart? Well, it is a defense mechanism and it is not for most people a conscious defense mechanism. It is actually a safety mechanism built into the design of the heart chakra where in order to prevent impulses from reaching the secret chamber of the heart, there are valves that close in the heart chakra. Therefore, closing the doorway for anything from the outside to enter. Now you may say: “But the light, the energy that is directed at us that vibrates at a lower level than the Christ mind, a lower level than love, how could that enter the secret chamber of the heart anyway?” To grasp this takes a little bit of contemplation. It is actually not that the energies themselves enter, but that the thought matrices carried by the energy waves can enter into the heart chakra and therefore color the light as soon as it comes out of the secret chamber. I know this is a little abstract to grasp with the outer mind, but if you contemplate it intuitively, you can experience an intuitive image of what I am saying.

You see, it is very tempting for people to believe that there is something that can protect you against any lower impulse. And in a sense our teachings can play into this by telling you that you can invoke light from Archangel Michael, and it will seal you from dark forces. But we have also told you, especially in this dispensation, that we of the ascended masters cannot override and will not override your free will. Therefore, you need to recognize that your lower system, your lower energy system of the four lower bodies, the chakras, is subject to your free will. And you can, while not allowing energy, you can allow certain thought forms to enter, even the secret chamber of the heart. The energy cannot enter, that is below the level of love, but certain thoughts can.

Alpha and omega of energy

Now some of you may not have contemplated the difference between energy and thoughts, energy and ideas, mental images. And this is very understandable to us, because again our teachings that were given for a certain level of understanding can block your grasp of what I am telling you now. You see, we have said before that everything is energy. So, it is of course easy to reason that your feelings are obviously energy, your thoughts are also energy, your sense of identity is energy, everything is energy. This is correct, but it is not the full understanding.

So, we can say that there are certain energies that are moving energies. You take light, light from the sun, it is a physical energy that is moving through space. You take a radio wave, a radio wave is moving through space, but a radio wave carries words. So, there is an energy wave that is kind of like the driving force, the propellant of the radio wave. But superimposed upon that energy wave is a higher form of energy of the sound that is coming through as music or voices when you tune your radio to a certain station. And of course, when you are talking about voices, or for that matter even a song, there is meaning carried by those words. The words release a certain meaning in your mind. The same of course with television waves where you have actual images that also impact your mind, but you also have often spoken dialogue that then your mind assigns a meaning to. So, you see there is an alpha and omega of energy: there is the raw driving force of the energy, and there is the higher form of energy that is carried with it, and therefore in your mind can release a certain reaction because you assign a certain meaning to it based on the contents of your emotional, mental and identity bodies, especially the mental and the identity bodies.

The Conscious You’s basic reaction to earth

So, your energy system, your chakras, your four lower bodies are in the material world, and anything in the material world is subject to free will, the free will of the Conscious You. Now we have hinted at it before at least that you can talk about the free will of the I AM Presence and the free will of the Conscious You. So, here is your I AM Presence in the spiritual realm, it looks into the un-ascended sphere, it decides to send an extension of itself into embodiment in this un-ascended sphere, and that extension is the Conscious You. The Conscious You is an extension of the I AM Presence, but once it is sent into embodiment it gains a separate sense of self. When I say separate, I do not mean that the Conscious You goes into duality, that is a choice that the Conscious You can make at the 48th level. But you still have a sense of identity that is separate from the I AM Presence. When you descend to the 48th level, you see yourself as connected, a connected being, but you will at the 48th level experience a distance, a difference in vibration between the Conscious You and the I AM Presence. And therefore, there is even at the 48th level and above a certain sense of separation from the Presence. This means that the Conscious You experiences the situations it encounters in the material world in a different way than the I AM Presence does. This is of course part of the purpose of sending the Conscious You into embodiment, to have experiences that the I AM Presence cannot have from the spiritual realm. But it also means that the Conscious You in order to have those experiences, it has a will that is not a clone of, not in total alignment with the I AM Presence. And therefore, the Conscious You has the option to go into duality and separation, what we have called the separate mind based on the duality consciousness with the two opposite polarities. And this is simply an inevitable part of taking embodiment, sending the Conscious You into embodiment.

I know that for many of you who are focused down here in the physical realm, experiencing the world as it is, experiencing various traumas, carrying some of these wounds with you from past lives, even going back to your birth trauma, it can seem like this is kind of a raw deal for the Conscious You. Because the Conscious You is the one who is down here in embodiment experiencing the world through the four lower bodies, having to make choices based on all of these chaotic conditions, and the Conscious You is the one who can feel really, really hurt by conditions, while the I AM Presence is sitting up there, not experiencing all of the pain and trouble that the Conscious You is experiencing. And it is perfectly understandable that you have that reaction. I certainly had it when I was in embodiment. All ascended masters who have been in embodiment, especially on a dense planet like earth, we have all had to go through that reaction.

Even though this was a long, seemingly sidetrack, it relates to the Heart Chakra because while you cannot take the raw energy waves of a lower vibration into the secret chamber of the heart, you can take certain images. And one of the images you can take is this sense that you were the one who got the hard end of the deal. You are the one who is here in embodiment, you are the one who is experiencing all of this. And why did the I AM Presence allow this? And why did the ascended masters allow this? And why have they not protected you from all of the things that have happened? It is a very understandable reaction. Now I am using specific words here. Each of you may have other words that are more meaningful to you. But we can basically say that at some point in the past, when you were exposed to what we have called the cosmic birth trauma or other traumas, you had a certain reaction in the secret chamber of your heart. And when you had that reaction, that there was something that happened that should not have happened, you inevitably felt that you want this never to happen again. And therefore, you want to protect yourself from this happening again. And as a result of that, you want to close the valves in your heart chakra so that no thoughts or ideas can enter the secret chamber of the heart from earth. Again, it is a very understandable reaction that we all have had, those of us who have ascended from earth. It is almost inevitable. I do not even really need to say almost, because given the density of the planet, the darkness, the amount of fallen beings on the planet, it is inevitable.

So, a long explanation I know, but it is important to set the foundation for what we will teach you during this conference. So, you see here that in the secret chamber of the heart is your basic reaction to earth, the Conscious You’s basic reaction to earth, but it is sealed behind the closed heart chakra, the valves in the heart chakra. This means that the Conscious You is outside those valves. And therefore, you cannot see that reaction. You can, if you have started clearing your heart chakra, you may see it in glimpses. And some of you have already seen it, you have already sensed that you have a certain reaction to earth. And this is because you have opened enough of the valves that you can get at least a partial sensation of what is the basic way that you look at earth.

The essence of the spiritual path

This is the deepest dynamic of what is going on in the heart chakra. That when you look at your heart chakra from the outside, when the heart chakra is closed, you cannot see that reaction to earth. And if you look at human beings out there in the world who are not on a spiritual path, they have no idea of what I am saying. If I was giving this teaching in some kind of public forum where people would be exposed to it, which would have to be by force, as people would not even voluntarily connect to the teaching— but if that were to happen, that people were exposed to it, they would have no idea what I am talking about. When I say that you have a basic reaction to life on earth, they would have no way to even relate to what I am saying. Because their basic reaction is the only way they think you can react to life.

You who are spiritual people, based on all the teachings we have given about separate selves, subconscious selves, that cause you to react, you can see, or at least you can switch your mind and begin to see, that although the reaction that you had was understandable and inevitable, it was only a reaction. When I say it was inevitable that you reacted, I do not mean that the reaction itself was inevitable and therefore can never be changed. You reacted, the Conscious You reacted, by making a choice to accept a certain idea, a certain view. By becoming conscious of that choice, you can consciously change it. And that is of course the whole point of all of our teachings, is that everything in your life, in your consciousness, in your being, is subject to free will. And as we have said many times, there is no choice you can make with your free will that you cannot change with your free will. And this of course is what the vast majority of people on earth are unable to grasp at their present level of consciousness. They, of course, also made a choice to accept a certain reaction to earth. But it is buried so deep that they have no concept of what it really means. And therefore, they think that the way they react to life is the only way to react to life.

Now, some people have started to become more aware, and they can see: “Oh, other people are actually not reacting to certain situations the way I am.” And therefore, they could become open to a teaching that would show them that they have some very, very deep reactions to earth, but that not everyone has the same reaction. It can, of course, be helpful to you, even as spiritual people, to talk about your basic reaction to earth, so you can see that all of you did not have the same reaction. And when you see that other people reacted to earth differently than you did, you suddenly gain the perspective—as I said, it was inevitable that you reacted—but your specific reaction was not inevitable. And therefore, it was just a choice you made. It may have been a very understandable choice, but it was just a choice. And because it was just a choice, you can change it by making a more aware choice.

What are you ready for?

This, right here, is the essence of the spiritual path. Very, very few teachings on the planet teach this. Very, very few teach this. Why? Because the vast majority of spiritual people are not ready to take this kind of responsibility for themselves. You are, or you would not be here. And why are you ready? Even if your conscious mind does not feel like it is ready, even if you still have some subconscious self that is kicking and screaming, why are you ready? Because you have certain questions in your mind that nothing else answered, but you could not ignore or deny the questions. So you kept looking until you found this teaching. I am not saying this to give you any sense of pride that you are more advanced than all other spiritual students. We have seen what this does to even ascended master students when they think they have the highest teaching on the planet. It is not a matter of evaluating high or low. It is a matter of evaluating what are you ready for. What are you ready for? And when the student is ready, the teacher appears. So, have I appeared to you? So, you are ready. Now, you may have some separate selves that you need to work through before you can start looking at the deeper attitude to life that I am talking about here. And this, of course, we will help you look at.

How do you look at love?

Just to, perhaps, go a little bit down to a more practical level, the heart chakra. Again, what is it? Well, at a certain level, of course, it is the open door for the energies from your I AM Presence. But it is, of course, also an outgoing chakra, like all of the chakras. It radiates light out. And, of course, it is associated with the third ray of love.

If we now step away from the higher perspective I have given you, step to a more practical level. And you as an individual student, you are contemplating, what is the status of my heart chakra? How can I start getting a feel for what I need to heal in my heart chakra? In other words, instead of looking at this higher perspective I have given you, more practical, what do I need to start to heal? And the first thing you of course can look at is the way you look at love, the way you relate to love, the way you think about love, the way you feel about love.

And this, of course, can most easily be seen in your relationships with other people. Naturally, this is a very complex topic. We have given teachings about relationships before, but it is an extremely complex topic. But I will attempt to give you a tool that can help you at least get started on seeing what is blocking your individual heart chakra. Because at the, we might say, surface level of the heart chakra, what is blocking your heart chakra is the experiences you have had with love relationships. I am not just talking about a personal love relationship, I am also talking about parents, children, other people, good friends, basically anybody that you have a deeper relationship with, it is a love relationship.

The Mother Mary’s meditation

What I want to give you as a practical tool here, is that I want to take you through a meditation. And at the end of the meditation, I want you to take the notepads that you should all have had on your chairs and tables, and a pen, so I want you to take that out now and be ready. Because at the end of the meditation I want you to write down the first thing that comes to you. Do not analyze. We did this at the last conference in Estonia. Do not analyze, do not think. There is no wrong answer. You do not have to share this with anyone. It is an exercise to help you get some feel for what is blocking your heart chakra.

Now, I am asking you to close your eyes. We are first focusing on your physical body, sitting here in a chair in this room. You are mentally now stepping back from the body, stepping up. You are looking at your body from the outside, in your mind, and you realize: “I am not the body, I am mind.” Now you step back again. You are looking at your emotional body. Maybe there are some turbulent feelings. Maybe your emotional body is more calm with some undercurrents. But again, you are not the emotions. You are not your emotions. And now, you mentally step back, and up, and now you are above your mental body.

There are probably all kinds of thoughts going on in your mind right now. But you are above it. You are looking down. You do not need to engage the thoughts, because you are not your thoughts. You are more than your thoughts. You step up again. You look at your identity. You are a man or a woman. You are this nationality. You grew up in this place. But you are more than all of this. You do not need to engage it. You do not need to go inside of it. You can actually exist without that outer identity that you have taken on. For what are you when all comes down to it? You are that Conscious You. You are not the lower bodies. You are not your feelings, thoughts and your sense of identity. You are not who you see yourself as being. We have called it pure awareness, because you are awareness, but there are no characteristics. That is why you can go into your four lower bodies. If you had some kind of characteristic or structure as the Conscious You, you could not go into your identity body and feel like a human being on earth. And you know you are not a human being; you are more than that.

Now, from this perspective, you are looking down, and you are allowing to arise in your mind some kind of love relationship you have had in this lifetime. Not all of them. Just one comes to your mind. You are not thinking about it. You are not going into it, looking at it from the inside. You are just looking at it from the outside. And now, when I count down, when I get to zero, you will write whatever comes to you about that relationship. Do not think about what should come to you. Do not start analyzing. Just keep your attention gently on the relationship and be ready to write down the first thing that comes to you.

So I am counting. Ten, nine, eight, seven, six, five, four, three, two, one, one half, one quarter, one eighth and now write (3 minute pause)

Now stop writing.

You can always, when you have a quiet moment during this conference or after the conference, you can look at what you wrote, if you managed to write anything. If you did not, it is perfectly fine. You can do the exercise again and see what comes to you.

The highest gift you can give

But what you will see, for many of you, is that you have a certain view of love relationships. For many of you, it will be related to trust, that you feel that you have been hurt in love relationships and therefore, you find it difficult to trust other people. Why is it you cannot trust? You may say: I have been hurt. Yes. But why have you been hurt? What was it that caused the hurt?

And now we need to go back, and we need to look at the heart chakra. What is it that the heart chakra is? The heart chakra is the open door—ideally, the open door for the I AM Presence. What is coming from the I AM Presence, through the heart chakra, being expressed in the world? Well, I talked about there is the energy that is the raw energy, the energy waves that can carry a higher form of energy, thoughts, feelings, so forth, but they can also carry the individuality of your I AM Presence. As the I AM Presence is sending you energy, those energy waves are imbued with the individuality of the I AM Presence. And this means what? It means that when you first came to earth, you came here to express the individuality of your I AM Presence. You received that energy that gave you, well, first of all, consciousness. You are conscious because of the energy. It filled your identity body, your mental body, your emotional body, even your physical, so that you had the energy to do something, to express something, to be creative, to give some kind of a gift to the world. And that gift was individual to each of you. And the highest gift you can give is really, the individuality of your I AM Presence as it was at the time.

Now, if you look at some earlier teachings that were given about the I AM Presence, you can get the impression from these teachings that the I AM Presence is like this perfect being up there in the spiritual realm. It is almost like a god-like figure that knows everything and has the answers to everything. But as we have started telling you not so long ago, the I AM Presence is not ascended. That is why it is sending the Conscious You. The I AM Presence is learning. At the time that the I AM Presence decides to send a Conscious You, it has a certain individuality. Why is it sending the Conscious You? To expand that individuality, to grow its sense of self, to transcend itself. That means that the I AM Presence is not the same being today that originally sent you into embodiment on earth. It has transcended itself many times as a result of the experiences you have had.

The lost connection and fear of rejection

Here you are, Conscious You, in embodiment, you are exposed to this trauma, you close your heart chakra. Why did you do that? Because the Conscious You felt that it, as it saw itself, and as I said, you descend with the sense that you are somewhat separated—you are not in separation and duality, but you are separated from the I AM Presence seeing yourself as the separate being—you felt hurt, and you did not want your I AM Presence to be hurt like you had been. Therefore, you shut down your heart chakra, thinking, perhaps not really consciously, but at least at some level, so that the I AM Presence would not be hurt.

What has this got to do with your love relationships? Well, what is it you do when you are in a close relationship with another human being? You are exposing yourself. You can hide from a lot of people; you can hide who you are. But in a love relationship, it is much more difficult. Some people still manage to hide themselves pretty well, but it is definitely more difficult. You see, you were hurt by the world, you shut down your heart chakra, which means what? It means you lose your connection to your I AM Presence. Now you do not feel the love of your I AM Presence, so you seek love from other people. But in order to get that love, you have to open yourself and be vulnerable. And then when you get disappointed by other people, what do you feel? You feel that they judged or rejected your individuality. The very being that you are, you feel that you were rejected for who you are. And that is why you are afraid to open yourself to other people, because you are afraid that they will reject you, as you have been rejected in the past. You are afraid to expose yourself for who you are. Originally, this is because the Conscious You felt that the individuality of the I AM Presence was rejected.

Seeking acceptance in a love relationship

Now, of course, you do not have a clear view of that individuality, you have created an individuality in your identity, mental and emotional bodies. That is, of course, in many cases, you have these separate selves that are based on separation. They are, of course, much more vulnerable to being hurt. But you see the dynamic. In a love relationship, you cannot fully hide who you are and you are so afraid of being rejected for who you are. What is it that people seek in a love relationship? They are seeking a person who will accept them for who they are, and not criticize, not condemn, not try to change them, not blame them. And it is very understandable. It is what everybody seeks in a love relationship. Some people may have some separate selves that cause them to seek this by controlling others. But even behind these control games, everybody is actually seeking acceptance for who they are.

Now, this can take individual forms. That is why some of you will have written down something that may seem like it does not quite connect to what I am saying. But if you look at it more deeply, you will find that behind it, the specific form that it has for you, there is this push-pull of the desire to be accepted for who you are, and the fear of being rejected for who you are.

The Hollywood fantasy

Now, I know this has already been a very complex release that will take some contemplation. I do not expect you to really grasp everything that I have released here by just listening to it once. But I want to take it and give it a slight turn, and hopefully make it more practical. Because what you can do with this exercise that I have given you, you can give it again and again, and get more clarity about what it is for you individually that is the basic dynamic in love relationships. How do you actually look at love? What does love specifically mean for you? What is it as an energy? And you have all been affected by this Hollywood happy ever after, finding the ideal partner. And I understand why you are laughing. But if you could see how deeply these projections from the movie industry and the book industry have been ingrained in the collective consciousness, you would be shocked. It is so deeply ingrained. And it is deliberately done by the fallen beings, because they know this keeps people seeking something outside themselves that you can only find inside yourself.

What you can do is contemplate how the way you look at love causes you to look out there. And what is it you are looking for? You will have individual views of these individual words that you will use to describe it, but you are looking for something in a love relationship. And now there are two aspects of this. The one aspect is that you have the separate selves that are looking for something that could never be found.

Why? Because the separate self is based on the duality consciousness. And what we have said many times, what the messenger has explained in some of his YouTube videos about non duality and duality is that you have two polarities that are relative to each other. But the duality consciousness takes one of them and elevates them to the status of being the absolute. If you talk about love, it is the absolute love. That is the Hollywood fantasy, the ultimate love. And all you need to do is find the right person, the one and only. But you see, it can never be found because no dualistic polarity can ever be ultimate, they are always relative. They can never be fully satisfied. They can never fill you. That is why I said earlier, why have you found this teaching? Because there were questions you could not find answers to, but you could not just drop them. You had to keep looking. Well, that is what you have to do in this world. And that is why you can never find another person who is going to fill all of your needs. You are on an impossible quest.

Looking for love outside yourself

The other aspect of this is, of course, that you have some unresolved subconscious selves. And any person you are going to find will have their own unresolved subconscious selves. When the honeymoon is over, the selves would start clashing. And when you have a subconscious self that is clashing with a subconscious self of another person, this will actuate this deeper sense that you were rejected in the past for who you are. Because you are inside the self, you are now identified with the self, it become part of your emotional, mental and identity body. When the other person’s separate self rejects your separate self, you feel it is rejecting you. And this is just inevitable. Look at relationships, the ones you have had, look at other people. It is inevitable.

But what does it come from? It comes from the fact that you are looking for something outside yourself that you can never find outside yourself. I am not here saying that you cannot have fulfilling love relationships, but you cannot have them if you are so identified with these separate selves. And this means that you need to, instead of looking for this perfect love outside yourself, you need to redirect and go within and realize where is the love going to come from that is going to fulfill you. It is going to come from your I AM Presence. It cannot come from anywhere else. You need to open your heart chakra so you can feel that love. Some of you have already felt it. Some of you have felt it and you are not aware of it.Some of you have only had a brief glimpse. Some of you have not felt it because your heart chakra is still too closed. And we will of course give you other tools for opening the heart chakra.

No need to protect the I AM Presence

But what is sort of the conclusion that I want you to take away from this release? It is simply this, the Conscious You does not need to protect the I AM Presence. You think you do. It is very deeply ingrained in all of us after we have been exposed to these traumas. We think we have to protect the Presence. But what did I say in the beginning? The I AM Presence does not experience your life on earth the way you do as the Conscious You. Even though you have been deeply hurt, the Conscious You will not be hurt by that experience. The first thing you need to recognize here is that you, as the Conscious You, you do not need to protect the I AM Presence. You do not need to close your heart chakra in order to prevent anything from coming from the world, going into the secret chamber of your heart and up to the Presence. It is not necessary because the I AM Presence will not experience it the way you do. You may be traumatized by an experience but the I AM Presence will not be traumatized by that experience. It will process it in a different way than you can do as the Conscious You or at least that you could do at the time and therefore, it has an entirely different experience.

Now, when the Conscious You starts clearing out the subconscious selves, you can connect to the I AM Presence and you can come to experience how the I AM Presence looked at a certain traumatic situation from this life or past lives. And that means the Conscious You can now come to experience how the I AM Presence experienced that situation and that will be the ultimate healing for the Conscious You. But you cannot do that as long as you are trying to protect the I AM Presence from feeling the way you are feeling because then you are blocking yourself from experiencing the love from your I AM Presence and therefore, you are stuck. You are in a CATCH-22. One way to break it is to realize you do not need to protect the I AM Presence but the other aspect of it, the Alpha to the Omega of not protecting the I AM Presence, is to realize what we have said so many times.

Think about how many times in the last few years we have said something like this. Please do not project at us or your I AM Presence that we judge you the way the fallen beings do. We are not in duality. Your I AM Presence is not in duality. It does not condemn the Conscious You for any choice the Conscious You has ever made. It does not matter what you have done. It does not matter what mistakes you think you have made. The I AM Presence does not judge you. It loves you unconditionally and it is willing, in fact it is constantly radiating that unconditional love to the Conscious You. But as long as you think you either have to protect the Presence or you have to protect yourself from the judgment of the Presence, the angry God in the sky, that is another image of the fallen beings. Then how can you experience the love of the I AM Presence or the love of the ascended masters? And therefore, you are caught on this treadmill of seeking to get this ultimate love from this world that you can only receive from the world beyond this.

The love from above

And you can be in this state for many, many lifetimes which most people on the planet have been. But many of you have even in past lifetimes started to go beyond it. You have found something that you loved more than anything in this world. Why do you have these questions that cause you to keep seeking until you found the teaching? Because there is something you love more than anything in this world. And that something that you love more, loves you more. Because that something is your I AM Presence and the ascended masters that are your spiritual teachers. Even the ascended masters that created your I AM Presence out of their beings. As we have said, we who are the most known ascended masters working with earth, we did not create your I AM Presence because we are not so much older beings than you are. But there are of course ascended masters who created your I AM Presence originally and my I AM Presence and Jesus’ I AM Presence and so forth. And those are ultimately what you long back for. Those are your spiritual parents.

We who are the ascended masters working with earth are working with earth because we ascended from earth. And therefore, we know how difficult of a planet it is and we can serve as examples —what one has done all can do. But there are ascended masters who created your individual I AM Presence out of their own being. And they are also radiating unconditional love to you through your I AM Presence. And that is what you love more than anything on earth. And they love you more than anything on earth. In fact, they love you more than any other being because you are out of their own beings. And that is ultimately what you seek.

The love of Mother Mary

Again, I know I have given you a very big mouthful. It may as we have said before seem like too much for the beginning of a conference. But we have a certain teaching we want to bring out and we had to set a foundation so we have something to build on. I trust that you can come back to this teaching, study it, listen to it, read it, do the exercise and gradually come to see what is the immediate thing that blocks your heart chakra, namely your approach to love relationships.

With this I have given you what I wanted to give you in this installment. I know this has been more of a teaching dictation touching upon many complex topics that might appeal to the mind more than the heart. But I trust that behind it you can feel what motivates me for giving this teaching. And what motivates me is that I love you, each and every one of you. I cannot love you the same way as the ascended masters who created your I AM Presence. I cannot love you the same way as your I AM Presence. But I can certainly love you as the representative of the Divine Mother for each one of you is in a spiritual sense my children. And I love each one of you and I have absolutely no condemnation, no judgment for any of you, for anything you have done or gone through. There is only love. There is only a desire to help you transcend.

You tend to think that it was easier for me to ascend than it is for you. You tend to think it was easier for Jesus or Saint Germain, but it was not. Why was it not? What do you have to overcome in order to ascend? Your individual psychology. Do you really think that it was easier for me to overcome my psychology than it is for you to overcome your psychology? How could it be? I had created as the Conscious You my psychology and therefore, it was as difficult for me to see through my psychology, my separate selves as it is for you. Because I was looking at mine from the inside just as you are looking at yours from the inside. I know exactly what you are all going through and I have no other desire than to see you be free of it and rise as I know it is possible to rise. I have no other desire than to see you overcome these selves that cause you to reject my love because you think you are not worthy of it. But as this messenger went through a long time ago, a process of realizing that unconditional love cannot have conditions. Your mind rebels against this idea because anything that comes from duality wants to say: “But there must be conditions. God must be the angry God. There must be criteria you need to fulfill in order to ascend.”

But you see, in order to ascend you have to transcend the mind that wants to create conditions because that is duality. And therefore, you have to come to see the conditions that you have created that you think keep you out of the ascended state. That you think because you see them from the inside or perhaps you do not see them because you are inside. But they all mean absolutely nothing. They only have the reality that you give them and they will only fully disappear when you step outside of that self and see that it is not real. But you are real. The core of your being is real. And that is why, as is said in this invocation, there can come that realization: that which is real cannot be affected by that which is unreal. With this I leave you enveloped in my love.