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Ascended Master Mother Mary through Kim Michaels, August 3, 2024. This dictation was given at a Healing Retreat in Chicago: Heal your heart and the heart of America.

I AM the Ascended Master Mother Mary.

Now you all, of course, know how to search the internet, so you know that if you put in a certain word and hit the button you get three and a half million hits. But we have a similar feature in the ascended realm in the form of the akashic records, where you can also search and what you are searching is not, of course, what people have put in the akashic records, but what actually happens. You can actually do a search on the word heart and you can see how many times people have used the word heart in a spoken sentence, and then you can do a more sophisticated search where you see what words people have used in the same sentence as the word heart. And if you search this way you will see that the most common word associated with heart is broke or broken, as in: “It broke my heart”, “He broke my heart”, “My heart is broken.”

The (sense of the) broken heart

The topic I wish to talk about here is this concept of the heart breaking and obviously, I am in no way discounting or making light of people’s experiences. Many people throughout the ages have had this experience that something broke, either in their physical heart or in their heart chakra, even if they were not aware of the chakras they could have this sense that something breaks. And I am not discounting the experience at all. But the question I will start out with, of course the physical heart can break or be damaged, but when we are talking about the heart chakra, can the heart chakra actually be broken?

Is it possible for something in the physical, emotional, mental or identity realm to break the heart chakra? And the answer to that is an unequivocal no, it is not possible. The design of the aura is so that nothing from the lower vibrations of fear can break the chakras. Now take care, we have said that there are valves in the heart chakra, and in all of the chakras of course, that can be closed, but they cannot be broken so they cannot be opened again. We have also said you can take in energies and thoughts and ideas and images from the vibrations of fear into the outer chakra, the part of the chakra that is outside the valves, so the chakras can be polluted but they cannot be broken in a way that could never be repaired.

Healing vc. clearing the heart chakra

And this is important to keep in mind when we are talking about healing the heart, because we have called it healing the heart because it is what most people respond to based on this experience that the heart can be broken. But it is really a matter of clearing the heart, for the heart can take on pollutants, the valves can be closed, but nothing can be broken. When you realize this you can begin to look at experiences. Some of you may have had the experience in this lifetime that your heart felt broken. All of you, all of us, have had it in past lifetimes, certainly when you received the birth trauma.

You can now begin to look at these experiences and at least contemplate that as dramatic as they felt at the time, as it seemed like something had happened that could never be undone, that could never be repaired, while the feeling is there, and I am not discounting it, it is not reality. Nothing can be broken so that it cannot be cleared again. You can very slowly, and I know that for some this will be difficult in the beginning because the trauma is so fresh, it is still so deep, but you can at least begin to contemplate as we have said, with free will. You cannot make a choice you cannot undo by making a more aware choice, but even beyond this you cannot actually be broken by anything that has happened on earth.

Letting die, not fixing

We have said the Conscious You is pure awareness, it cannot be changed by anything that happens on earth. Again, there are deeper layers of understanding of this because the Conscious You can of course, take on the selves and you are then, the way you look at yourself and the way you look at the world is changed, but the point here is you cannot be permanently changed in such a way that you cannot again become whole. And again, I know that many people have felt that they were so hurt that it feels like you could never become whole again.

But that feeling is not the Conscious You, it is a separate self. And if you look only at the separate self you can say, well, it is probably true enough in the sense that the self that was created in a traumatic situation was created in a broken state and it cannot be fixed. What have we said so many times? The self projects there is a problem that must be solved. A self projects your heart was broken and it must be fixed, but what have we said so many times? You do not overcome the self by solving the problem that the self is projecting. You overcome the self by letting the self die and letting go of any desire to fix the problem. You cannot fix the self that projects that the heart was broken. You can only let it go. This of course, is the difficulty. We know this very well from our own experience.

“Consequences that can never be undone”

What does it really mean that it feels like the heart was broken? Well, it means that this self that was created based on, the trauma is based on, this belief that there are things that can happen in the unascended sphere that could never be undone.

This is a belief that has been cultivated originally by the fallen beings, not even in those who fell in the fourth sphere but actually in the sixth sphere. Some fallen beings came up with this idea that if they could get people to make a mistake and then project at them that this could never be undone, this could never be repaired, then they could put people in this catch-22 of trying to repair the irreparable, trying to fix what could not be fixed and therefore, people will be so focused on changing a condition in the physical world that cannot be changed.

You see again, the common experience in the physical realm is that there are choices you can make, things you can do, things that other people can do to you that have consequences that cannot be changed physically. If you are in an accident or in a war and one leg is cut off, well this cannot be undone at the physical level, and this applies at the physical level—there are some consequences that cannot be undone at the physical level. But as we have said so many times before, it is not actually the physical situation that affects you, it is what takes place in the emotional, mental and identity level in reaction to the physical situation, and nothing at those three higher levels can be permanent or unalterable. Whatever has happened to you at those levels, you can overcome by letting the selves die.

I realize, as I said, in terms of healing a physical disease, that this is difficult. If you have lost a leg, it is not easy to make peace with that fact and move on with your life. I am not saying it is easy, but I am saying it is possible. There are physical consequences that cannot be undone, but in the emotional, mental and identity levels there is no consequence whatsoever that cannot be undone by letting the self die. Therefore, your heart chakra, your heart, cannot be permanently broken. Whatever has happened, however strong the reaction was, it can be overcome. It can be transcended. It cannot be fixed, but it can be transcended so that even the physical condition does not take you away from wholeness, does not disturb you, does not stop your growth, does not prevent you from ascending.

The sense of being rejected

Now, if we go deeper into this sense that the heart is broken, what is really behind it? Well, it ties in with the other teachings we have given that you come here to express the individuality of your I AM Presence and you feel it is rejected, put down, “hammered down” as the saying goes, and this gives you that unbearable pain that makes you feel like the heart breaks because as we said, it is through the heart that your divine individuality is expressed. The Conscious You can have this reaction that it does not want that feeling to go up to the I AM Presence, so it wants to close the heart chakra so it cannot go up. But as we have said, whatever feeling the Conscious You has does not affect the I AM Presence the same way, therefore, the Conscious You does not need to protect the Presence. The Presence can take care of itself.

Once you have closed that heart chakra you can have additional traumatic experiences where you again feel like the heart breaks. If you have experienced in this lifetime the sensation of the heart breaking you have most certainly experienced it in past lifetimes also, because once you have gone through that experience one time then it becomes easier to have it again because now you have these outer selves that are based on this feeling that your individuality was rejected. They do not grasp the individuality in the I AM Presence but they feel that you were rejected and so when you have that sense of being rejected for who you are, that can cause you to feel that the heart is breaking. This often happens in a love relationship if a partner leaves you, but of course there are other situations where people feel the heart is breaking, such as if there is an accident or if a loved one dies.

These are the most common experiences. What is it that causes this? If you have a loved one who dies, is it really that you feel that you were rejected because the loved one could not help but die, whereas the love partner that left you could have chosen differently. But the reality is that when you create these subconscious selves, when you create essentially that first self after your birth trauma, the primal self as we have called it, you are now creating an outer self that is meant to make you never again feel the same pain you felt in the birth trauma and the self therefore builds a certain image of the world and how the world should work so that you can be, you can feel you have control over your life and you can avoid being really hurt.

You have a certain sense of how the world should be and you transfer that to, for example, your family members should not die until they eventually get old but certainly no accident should happen and many other conditions where you have a certain view of what should or what should not happen. And then when that view is broken, the self feels that it was rejected. Its worldview was rejected, the worldview that it is identified with.

In a sense we could say that originally the Conscious You felt that your divine individuality was rejected. This created the primal self and now the primal self feels that every time it is demonstrated that it does not have control over your life and the world, it is rejected by the world. If the world does not conform to the worldview of the primal self and other selves, the primal self feels rejected, and of course, when the Conscious You is not aware of the primal self and is inside of it, the Conscious You feels rejected.

Snapping out of the focus on self

What is the way out of it? Well, we have given the tools for how to resolve the selves, the primal self and others, and they are of course useful and valid. You can certainly use them. But what I will give you here is just some thoughts about how you can shift your perspective, because as Kuthumi so carefully explained, the real effect of the birth trauma is that you are now focused on self. You came here not being focused on yourself, focused on raising the whole but after the birth trauma you are now focused on self.

And how do you snap out of this focus on self? Well, there are different ways to do it, so let me start with one. We have very carefully given you these teachings about natural planets and unnatural planets. What is the real message behind this? You can be fascinated with these ideas in various ways, nothing wrong with this, but if you step back from the real message, what is the message behind the teaching that there are natural and unnatural planets and that there is a fundamental difference between the two?

It is that on an unnatural planet you cannot predict what is going to happen and therefore it is dangerous, non-constructive, to have this idea of what should and should not happen. And of course, the primal self is completely based on the evaluation that the birth trauma should not have happened, instead something positive should have happened. But the Conscious You can contemplate these ideas, can look at the very fact that what causes most of your frustration, most of your disappointment in life is precisely that you have an idea of what should happen or what should not happen in a situation and that idea, that expectation, is not fulfilled and this is what causes the frustration.

You can therefore look at yourself, you can look at others and you can come to realize that the only way to actually survive emotionally, mentally, at the identity level, on an unnatural planet is by overcoming this entire conglomerate of selves and even the underlying attitude that certain things should or should not happen. And as Kuthumi explained, the Conscious You actually comes to earth with an expectation of what should happen—you should be able to do something positive to help other people escape suffering, to uplift the planet, perhaps you even have some sense that you should be received as the prince on the white horse, as a hero, the superhero that you see in movies who is able to fix what is going on on the planet.

When we come as avatars we do not have the expectation or even the fear that we could be attacked and put down. We do not really have a sense of what should not happen. But as soon as we come down here in physical embodiment and experience what life is on earth and experience that what we thought should happen is not happening, we very quickly develop this sense that: “Oh, this should not have happened, that should not have happened, this thing should not have happened, this definitely should not have happened.”

You are now caught in this dynamic and the primal self is entirely built on this dynamic of what should and should not happen. But the Conscious You has the ability to step outside of this and see that this is what causes you to be hurt. Why can you have the sense that the heart breaks? Because behind it all was this sense that certain things should never have happened but now they have happened and you are so shocked by this that it feels like your heart is breaking because your whole sense of what your life should be like is shattered, is challenged, and it is such an overwhelming feeling and that feeling of being overwhelmed once again, twice again, a thousand times again is what makes it feel like the heart is breaking.

Mother Mary’s and Jesus’ example

The Conscious You can come to see this mechanism and therefore, you can decide to work on this, to start working on it. And you can take certain examples of this, you can take what you know about the path. If you will allow me for a moment to take you back to the situation where I was in embodiment as the mother of Jesus, I have given birth to Jesus, I have followed him, seen how his potential slowly started unfolding, I have seen him start his last mission knowing that there was a very real risk that he would be killed.

It was not that I was not expecting this. Here we now are, he has been nailed to the cross, I am standing at the foot of the cross looking up at him, and you could say that as a mother watching my son die could have broken my heart, but it did not. It could have, and if I had allowed my heart to break I would not have made my ascension after that lifetime. But what prevented me from going through that trauma was that I had dealt with this idea of what should and should not happen because I saw that Jesus’ mission was to challenge the forces of anti-christ and I knew that it is meaningless to have a sense of what should or should not happen to Jesus as a result of doing this.

The other thing is that for me the experience I had of watching him on the cross was a sense of victory because I watched him suffer and why was he suffering? Not because of the physical pain, as intense as that was, but because he was still struggling with his own sense of what should and should not happen. You see how he even said that he could command God to send legions of angels to free him from the situation and that is what he felt up until he realized that he had to go through this being crucified. But even while he was hanging on the cross he had a sense that he should not die on the cross, God should save him in the last minute in some miraculous way, and then he goes through this shock of realizing this is not going to happen.

Now right there, Jesus’ heart could have broken but he was able to not go into that reaction because he had dealt with his subconscious selves, his primal self before that and therefore, he was able to give up the ghost, that last sense of what should and should not happen so he could accept: “Yes my body is going to die on the cross”, and he therefore let it happen. And I was standing there watching him, actually very much holding the vision, the immaculate concept for him going through this transformation because this very giving up the ghost was the key to his victory on the cross. Of course, no Christian has grasped this but nevertheless. I stood there holding my breath and when I saw him come to that inner resolution and decide to give up that last sense that he should not die on the cross, I knew he had won his victory. It was not a sense of sorrow, not a sense of the heart breaking because I did not go into this sense that: “Oh, my son should not have died on the cross, God should have saved him.”

So, be careful now, if you have experienced that your heart broke in this lifetime. Do not go into thinking that means you cannot make your ascension regardless of what I just said. What I said was that if I had allowed my heart to break and created this self based on the belief that this should not have happened, then I could not have ascended until I had dealt with that self. And even if you have felt that your heart broke in this lifetime, you only created a self and when you let that self die you can still ascend, just as you have other selves you need to let die before you are ready to ascend. Again, there is nothing done that cannot be undone on earth in an unascended sphere.

Gautama’s example

Now take the other situation that we have talked about before. Gautama Buddha is sitting under the tree in meditation, ready to go into Nirvana but he has to pass that last initiation of the demons of Mara trying to pull him into reacting. And what would have been the primary inroad they would have in his consciousness if he had that sense of what should and should not happen? But he did not. He had overcome that so there was nothing that the demons could use. They created all kinds of scenarios in front of him, of masses of people dying because he was just sitting there not doing what he could have done to stop this. But he remained non-attached. There was nothing that should have happened, there was nothing that should not have happened, and that is why he won his victory of going higher and ascending, earning his ascension.

You can transfer that to yourself as this messenger did many years ago when he realized what had actually happened to the Buddha and Jesus on the cross. You can see that they simply demonstrated the path that we all had to walk to earn our ascension, of letting go of all of these selves of what should and should not happen. You are on an unnatural planet. You are on a fairly low, fairly dense unnatural planet. There are other unnatural planets that are not quite as unnatural as earth even though that might be hard to imagine for you. There are also some that are more unnatural than earth which might be even harder to imagine but nevertheless.

The interdependent originations

It is meaningless to say what should or should not happen. This is partly because of the interdependent originations. Everything is affected by everything else. You may take some kind of action in producing a certain result. This is what co-creators do. You have a vision of what you want to manifest and you are moving towards manifesting it, but you cannot know for certain what will happen because you can only have certain probabilities. And as they say in quantum physics, until the moment where the measurement is taken, there is no way to know exactly what the outcome is going to be, because the actual outcome is not defined by a very small situation involving this condition, that condition, this cause, that cause. If you look at a billiard table with three balls and you hit one ball that moves and hits another ball, it seems like a fairly simple system where you can easily figure out how the second ball is going to move if you know the momentum and speed of the first ball. But life is not a billiard table.

It is so much more complex because everything is connected and interdependent. You can of course, envision that something is going to happen, like you are going to start a business or whatever it may be and you can move towards it. But you need to avoid fixing in your mind a specific expectation because this is what sets you up for disappointment and frustration. Again, your heart has been hurt because of this experience that something happened that you thought should not have happened. But you can process this experience, you can come to see the mechanism and you can realize that the key to your freedom, the key to your peace of mind, the key to your spiritual growth, is to let the self die.

Now this does not mean that I am saying you should withdraw to a cave in the Himalayas and sit in meditation for 12 years. You can still take an active part of life. You just have to go into this neutral state of mind. You are taking steps but you are not having this idea that if a certain thing does not happen, you have failed. You can actually go into this state of mind where you realize there is no failure on earth. You are taking a certain action which has a certain direction, you have a certain vision, but whatever the outcome is, it is just an opportunity to learn, to grow, first of all, to grow in becoming non-attached to the fruits of action.

You take right action, you are not attached to the fruits of action. Whatever the fruit of action is, you just adjust, you learn, you step back, you expand your sense of self, you take a new action, a new impulse and if you keep doing this, it will start manifesting, but not necessarily the way you originally envisioned it. And that is what can ultimately lead you to reconsider—as Kuthumi said—what inner selves did you have before you came to earth and you can reconsider those selves and let them go and therefore, be at peace with being on earth and life is whatever it is because there is no should or should not.

The heart and the golden rule

You look at this nation of America, you look at the polarization, you look at the animosity, what is behind it all? Each side has a fixed image of what should or should not happen in this country and they are so focused on that image that they are not in their hearts, they are in their other chakras, many of them the solar plexus chakra or in the throat chakra where they are screaming and yelling at those that they see as the enemy. But they do not have heart and so they cannot connect with each other and they cannot connect to what we have called the basic humanity, because it is only through the heart that you connect to the basic humanity and the basic humanity is what allows you to embody the golden rule, do not do unto others what you do not want them to do to you. You have a certain sense that other people are like you, have the same inalienable rights that you have and therefore, they cannot be the enemy. But when people have closed their hearts perhaps because they felt their hearts were broken by life and they go into this state of anger, then they lose that basic humanity and it is very, very common when people have gone through this sense of the heart breaking that they want someone to blame, and of course it cannot be themselves, so it has to be those other people.

As we have said, when you are connected to the heart, when you are connected to your I AM Presence, to the Christ mind, there comes a point where you see that there are no other people. Nothing is ‘other’ for everything is out of the One mind. But when your heart is closed you cannot connect to this and when your heart is broken you feel like you did not do this, these were these outer circumstances and therefore, you can very easily go into wanting a scapegoat, wanting someone to blame and wanting someone to punish, for when your heart is closed and when you feel like it was broken because something happened that should not have happened, you have this desire to fix it. But if you are not looking inside yourself and seeing that the reaction was entirely inside of you, then the cause must be out there and then you can become so angry that you actually think that if you punish somebody else enough you would feel better, you would somehow feel that order was restored, and this is what people lose when their hearts are closed, this ability to actually connect to the golden rule because what does the golden rule say?

What does this actually say? Step back—the golden rule, do unto others or do not do unto others, what is it actually saying? It is saying that you cannot fix anything by punishing others. It is saying other things, but it certainly is saying that when you feel that others have done something to you that should not have happened to you, you cannot fix the situation by punishing those people. Even if they did something to you, you will only be free by continuing to follow the golden rule, but when people close their hearts, they cannot fathom this. They cannot connect to this and therefore, they become susceptible to the serpentine logic of the fallen beings that says that two wrongs can make a right.

Looking for a scapegoat

This is one of the most subtle serpentine lies spread on this planet. Just look back to biblical times—an eye for an eye and a tooth for a tooth. They even thought God had given them this rule because they thought that if somebody had hurt you and spilled the blood of your tribe or family, if you spilled the blood of their tribe or family, somehow order would have been restored. Two wrongs can make a right. Has that ever happened in the history of the universe? Nay. But people cannot see this when their hearts are closed, when their hearts are broken.

But what sense does it make that if your heart has been broken, you can heal your broken heart by breaking the heart of someone else? Well, it makes no sense when your heart is open. But when your heart is closed, suddenly this makes sense to people and therefore they think that if they can punish the scapegoat, they will restore their inner sense of order. You take the Nazis in Germany in the 1930s. They had this inflated sense of self-importance and superiority before the First World War. They lost the war and their self-image was shattered. They became so angry at this. But here comes Hitler who says: “Oh, but it was not you, it was the Jews”, the scapegoat. They think, not the general population, but certainly those who were behind the Nazi party, they think that by eradicating the Jews, they can somehow restore their sense of superiority, their sense of being in control because what the German people felt before the war, and of course the French and the English felt exactly the same way, was that they were so superior that they could not possibly lose the war. It should never happen to them that they lost because they were so superior.

You see again the sense of what should and should not happen was shattered and you might say that many among the German people, their hearts were broken. And certainly, many of the Jews that were sent to the concentration camps, their hearts were broken. But did that restore order to the universe? Of course not. What happened to the German people was that when they lost the second war and when the holocaust was exposed, their hearts were broken again. And this is what the golden rule says: If you suddenly start doing to others what you do not want them to do to you, then the universe will do to you what you have done to others and therefore, by hurting others, you are only hurting yourself.

This is a very persuasive beast in the collective consciousness on earth. You see literally thousands of examples in history where groups of people have gone into this mindset. You see it exactly in the United States today. You see the opposition between what we might call the Democrats or the liberals on one side and the ultra-conservatives on the other side. You see that both sides are in opposition. But it is really only those on the conservative side who are ready to take up arms and harm other people. They feel they have to fight for their vision. And this is the same beast that drove the Nazis to persecute the Jews, that drove the Soviets to persecute their own people, that drove people in the Middle East to seek revenge for revenge for revenge in an unending spiral, that has caused tribal warfare in Africa, that has caused so many other conflicts around the world, the cultural revolution in China under Mao, so many conquests. And right now, right here in America today, in what they see as the greatest nation on earth, you have the exact same dynamic that some people are looking for a scapegoat, thinking that if they can just punish the scapegoat or shut out all those immigrants, their sense of order will be restored. But no matter what they could possibly do, their sense of order will never be restored, because what threatens the sense of order is not the outer conditions, the other people, but their own psychological reaction.

Knowing better than Christ

When will enough people wake up from this mass delusion? What you essentially have in the United States right now is that some people have gone into what we could call a lynch mob mentality. Somebody has to be punished, violence has to happen, and then order will be restored. It is a bubble. It is a delusion. It could break at any minute. And why am I talking about this? Why are we giving these teachings about the heart? Because we are sending out impulses that will awaken some people. And if enough people awaken, suddenly the bubble can burst, and people can come to see: “What are we doing? What are we doing? How could we ever come to think that violence would solve any of our problems in this nation?” And some can even awaken and see that: “How have we who claim to be Christians come to contemplate violence and think that turning the other cheek and doing unto others is weakness? How have we come to think that the very thing that gave Jesus his victory is a weakness that we who claim to be followers of Jesus should not fall into? Oh no, we are good Christians, but we should not do what Christ did or what he told us to do. For we know better than Christ.”

Who was it that thought they knew better than Christ two thousand years ago? They thought that Jesus was so dangerous that he had to be executed. Well, they were the forces of anti-christ, those who were in the consciousness of anti-christ, what we have called the fallen beings. Who is it that thinks today, as these leaders of these Christian churches, that they know better than Christ? In some cases, the exact same people reincarnated. There are people incarnated in America today who cry: “Barabbas, Barabbas! Never mind the Living Christ. We do not want him. We prefer a murderer.”

There are those incarnated in America today as leaders of Christian churches who were the very leaders of the Jewish religion that had Jesus condemned to death and now they are doing the exact same thing. Not to Jesus, but to the Christ in their brothers and sisters in America. Does that make sense to anyone? I know it does not make sense to you here, but I am sending this impulse. Does this make sense? Then awaken from your delusion that you know better than Christ and start turning the other cheek and keep turning the other cheek until there is no one hitting you because you have transcended the consciousness that caused you to be in opposition to others.

This is the magic of the golden rule. If you keep doing to others there will come a point where they start doing the same to you. The universe starts giving you back what you are giving to others. You cannot fathom this if your heart is closed, but when your heart begins to open, you can be reborn, and then you are truly a born-again Christian when you fathom what Christ actually said instead of what some pastors in the fallen consciousness think he said.

You who are devoted to the Word of God, what do you think is being spoken right now? This is the Word of God spoken by an ascended being through a human messenger. If you cannot fathom this you are not among the chosen ones, because you have not chosen oneness with Christ. You have chosen death, or you have not been willing to give up your sense of superiority, your sense that you know better than Christ, in order to follow Christ. You have not been willing to lose your life for Christ’s sake. How can you be one of his disciples? How can you represent him? He will say: “I know you not.”

Politics  based on heart

Truly, there is only one thing that can bring America to the next level and that is heart. Many times, in the history of this nation, people have shown heart. But where is it today? Where are those who will break the deadlock, the gridlock, the animosity, who will change the tone of the political debate so that instead of being based on the closed heart, it is based on the open heart. Instead of being based on the solar plexus or the throat chakra perverted, it is based on the open heart chakra.

Where are those who will do this? They are in embodiment. Some of them have already started to awaken, but more can awaken and be awakened by this impulse that I am sending. It is time to wake up. It is time to open your heart to a new way to approach politics in America and make it based on heart, not hate. And when you open your heart, you will clearly see those who are speaking based on hate and have no heart, and how can you vote for someone who does not have heart?

Let this self-focus die

With this, I have given you what I wanted to give you in this installment. Again, you will need to go back, reread it, relisten to it, and process it, what it means for you personally. But I trust that those of you who are open to our teachings will have found something here that appeals to you, that applies to you, that you can see how you can use this to start changing this sense of what should and should not happen. And therefore, you can make peace with your life, however it has formed itself so far.

What did the messenger say yesterday? He hopes you can feel accepted for who you are right now. Well, I share that hope. I have no condemnation, no judgment of any of you. Whatever may have happened in your life, whatever you feel should not have happened or should have happened, what you should have done, should not have done, the mistakes you should not have made, it means nothing to me. What means something to me is your potential, that I see much more clearly than you do, and my only desire is that you will come to see it as well and come to accept yourself.

Whatever your life may have been up until this point, there is nothing that cannot be healed. There is nothing that cannot be transcended. There is nothing that cannot be overcome, but it can only be overcome by giving up the ghost, the ghosts, one at a time. And the last ghost to overcome is what Kuthumi talked about, the focus on self.

What was the ghost that Jesus gave up on the cross? What does this say when he said that he could command God to send legions of angels to save him? What does this say about Jesus’ state of mind at that moment? He was focused on himself. I had, in a certain sense, a higher level of non-attachment, a lower level of focus on myself, than Jesus had when he was born. That is why I could be the mother holding the balance for him, and I saw throughout his entire life how [this was] his essential challenge and the only way he could fulfill his mission was to overcome the focus on self. And he did make progress, but still, even during the three years of his public mission, he always had a certain sense of self-importance and the importance of his mission.

I am not criticizing or judging this, it was part of what drove him to do what he did. I am simply pointing out that he only won his victory by letting that ghost die, by giving up that ghost. And it is the same for each and every one of us. And what I am also saying is that some of you, in fact quite a few of you, have the potential to give up that focus on self in this lifetime and still live for a long time on earth without the focus on self, which means, of course, that you will be more at peace, you would enjoy life more, but you will also be the open door for bringing forth something from the ascended realm that is blocked by the focus on self.

And so, my vision, my desire for you, is that you overcome that sense of being so focused on your selves. You are not actually focused on yourself, you are focused on your selves, beginning with the primal self. You are focused in the outer instead of being focused on the pure awareness of the Conscious You, and the I AM Presence and the ascended masters. You are focused on this outer self, but you can give up that ghost anytime. Jesus could not give it up until he was hanging on the cross, but that should not stop you from giving it up without any dramatic events. Jesus had a flair for the dramatic, so he had to go through this extreme situation.

The Buddha, on the other hand, sat under the tree in the forest and just gave it up without any drama. You decide who you want to be because, I tell you, that the world and the fallen beings will gladly give you all the drama you could want. But if you have had enough of the drama on this planet, then it is just a matter of coming to the point where you realize this is the now to give up the ghost. Of course, for many of you it will require a process of letting go of other selves, and that is why we have given you all of these tools. But many of you are already at the point where you have made enough progress that you could actually step back, see that you have this focus on self, see how it is limiting you, and just give up that ghost. That is what would warm my heart more than anything else.

With this, I seal you in the joy of my heart, the heart of the Mother of God, the office that I hold, but even the personal heart of the Ascended Master Mary who loves you, each one of you, in a very personal way that is beyond the office that I hold. Be sealed in that joy.

Copyright © 2024 Kim Michaels

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Ascended Master Mother Mary through Kim Michaels, August 2, 2024. This dictation was given at a Healing Retreat in Chicago: Heal your heart and the heart of America.

I AM the Ascended Master Mother Mary, and it is with great joy that I welcome all of you who are here physically and all of you who are tuned in via this wonderful invention of the internet. So, greetings from my heart and the heart of all of us, all of us who are going to speak, all of us who are supporting this gathering and the goal of clearing the heart of both yourselves and of this nation of the United States, which is not so united right now because the heart has taken a back seat for too many people to either the other chakras or to the thinking, linear, analytical, judging mind. 

The heart chakra and the secret chamber of the heart

What is the heart? Well, when we talk about clearing the heart, we are of course not primarily talking about the physical heart, even though there is of course, as you just saw in this invocation you gave, there is a connection between the physical heart and the emotional, mental and identity bodies and of course the heart chakra. The heart chakra and the physical heart are very closely related and quite frankly, you can see a correlation between the frequency of heart diseases that you see in society and the closing of people’s heart chakras. This for most people happened many years ago and I am in no way trying to blame anyone. It is very, very difficult to be in embodiment on a dense planet like earth and be exposed to such severe trauma such as war or many other physical traumas without having the heart chakra close up. But why is that? Why is it that the heart chakra closes when people are exposed to trauma, whether it is physical trauma or psychological trauma? Well, that is what I wish to discourse on. 

For what is then the heart chakra? Well, you know of course that it is the center of the seven chakras, three above it, three below it. There are various teachings out there that talk about the flow of the Kundalini energy from the base chakra to the crown, but truly nothing can flow between the chakras without involving the heart chakra. And why is that? It is because the heart chakra is the open door between the I Am Presence and the Conscious You and the four lower bodies. Now, some teachings say that it is the crown chakra because it is the highest, but this is actually not what we of the Ascended Masters teach. 

The heart chakra is where the light from your I Am Presence enters. We have in previous teachings given the image of the threefold flame in the heart that springs from the white fire, but of course there is in reality a sevenfold flame in the heart representing all of the chakras. But as a part of progressive revelation, we often do not give the most advanced teaching to begin with because it is overwhelming to people at the time. So, there truly is a replica of each of the chakras in the heart chakra. And of course, many of you are familiar with the concept that there is a secret chamber of the heart. And this is actually, really you can look at it as not being a separate chakra because it is interlinked with the heart chakra, yet it is separate in the sense that even if the heart chakra closes or even if it takes in impurities, this will not affect the secret chamber of the heart. Nothing from earth, nothing from below, nothing from the outside can enter or pollute the secret chamber. That is why in previous dispensations it has been called the secret chamber. Because it is secret to those who are in the anti-christ consciousness—in the state of duality and separation. They cannot even see it and therefore they cannot direct anything against it. So, becoming more aware of this secret chamber of the heart is important for opening the heart chakra. Yet, this represents somewhat of an enigma for us because while your heart chakra is closed, how can you be aware of the secret chamber of the heart chakra? If your heart chakra is closed, how can you see what is behind it? I will therefore begin by talking about the heart chakra itself. 

Now as I said, the light from your I AM Presence enters the secret chamber of the heart then goes into the heart chakra. In an ideal situation, the light is then distributed from the heart chakra to the other chakras. But when you close the heart, there is of course a very reduced amount of energy flowing out of the heart to the other chakras, which means that when you close the heart, you are also at least partially closing the other chakras. And there really is, I was tempted to say, no point in seeking to cleanse the other chakras until you have cleansed the heart, but this is not entirely the case. You can gain progress by working on the other chakras. But if you really want to clear your chakras, it is the fastest way to start with the heart chakra. Now I know we have not always done that in teachings such as for example the Course in Self-Mastery, where we of course start with the throat chakra that corresponds with the First Ray and then work our way up. But for the purpose of this teaching that we are giving at this conference about clearing the heart, we will start by focusing on the heart chakra, and clearing the heart and thereby making it easier to clear the other chakras. 

Defense mechanism in the heart

Now why is it that when you are exposed to this trauma, you close the heart? Well, it is a defense mechanism and it is not for most people a conscious defense mechanism. It is actually a safety mechanism built into the design of the heart chakra where in order to prevent impulses from reaching the secret chamber of the heart, there are valves that close in the heart chakra. Therefore, closing the doorway for anything from the outside to enter. Now you may say: “But the light, the energy that is directed at us that vibrates at a lower level than the Christ mind, a lower level than love, how could that enter the secret chamber of the heart anyway?” To grasp this takes a little bit of contemplation. It is actually not that the energies themselves enter, but that the thought matrices carried by the energy waves can enter into the heart chakra and therefore color the light as soon as it comes out of the secret chamber. I know this is a little abstract to grasp with the outer mind, but if you contemplate it intuitively, you can experience an intuitive image of what I am saying. 

You see, it is very tempting for people to believe that there is something that can protect you against any lower impulse. And in a sense our teachings can play into this by telling you that you can invoke light from Archangel Michael, and it will seal you from dark forces. But we have also told you, especially in this dispensation, that we of the ascended masters cannot override and will not override your free will. Therefore, you need to recognize that your lower system, your lower energy system of the four lower bodies, the chakras, is subject to your free will. And you can, while not allowing energy, you can allow certain thought forms to enter, even the secret chamber of the heart. The energy cannot enter, that is below the level of love, but certain thoughts can. 

Alpha and omega of energy

Now some of you may not have contemplated the difference between energy and thoughts, energy and ideas, mental images. And this is very understandable to us, because again our teachings that were given for a certain level of understanding can block your grasp of what I am telling you now. You see, we have said before that everything is energy. So, it is of course easy to reason that your feelings are obviously energy, your thoughts are also energy, your sense of identity is energy, everything is energy. This is correct, but it is not the full understanding. 

So, we can say that there are certain energies that are moving energies. You take light, light from the sun, it is a physical energy that is moving through space. You take a radio wave, a radio wave is moving through space, but a radio wave carries words. So, there is an energy wave that is kind of like the driving force, the propellant of the radio wave. But superimposed upon that energy wave is a higher form of energy of the sound that is coming through as music or voices when you tune your radio to a certain station. And of course, when you are talking about voices, or for that matter even a song, there is meaning carried by those words. The words release a certain meaning in your mind. The same of course with television waves where you have actual images that also impact your mind, but you also have often spoken dialogue that then your mind assigns a meaning to. So, you see there is an alpha and omega of energy: there is the raw driving force of the energy, and there is the higher form of energy that is carried with it, and therefore in your mind can release a certain reaction because you assign a certain meaning to it based on the contents of your emotional, mental and identity bodies, especially the mental and the identity bodies. 

The Conscious You’s basic reaction to earth

So, your energy system, your chakras, your four lower bodies are in the material world, and anything in the material world is subject to free will, the free will of the Conscious You. Now we have hinted at it before at least that you can talk about the free will of the I AM Presence and the free will of the Conscious You. So, here is your I AM Presence in the spiritual realm, it looks into the un-ascended sphere, it decides to send an extension of itself into embodiment in this un-ascended sphere, and that extension is the Conscious You. The Conscious You is an extension of the I AM Presence, but once it is sent into embodiment it gains a separate sense of self. When I say separate, I do not mean that the Conscious You goes into duality, that is a choice that the Conscious You can make at the 48th level. But you still have a sense of identity that is separate from the I AM Presence. When you descend to the 48th level, you see yourself as connected, a connected being, but you will at the 48th level experience a distance, a difference in vibration between the Conscious You and the I AM Presence. And therefore, there is even at the 48th level and above a certain sense of separation from the Presence. This means that the Conscious You experiences the situations it encounters in the material world in a different way than the I AM Presence does. This is of course part of the purpose of sending the Conscious You into embodiment, to have experiences that the I AM Presence cannot have from the spiritual realm. But it also means that the Conscious You in order to have those experiences, it has a will that is not a clone of, not in total alignment with the I AM Presence. And therefore, the Conscious You has the option to go into duality and separation, what we have called the separate mind based on the duality consciousness with the two opposite polarities. And this is simply an inevitable part of taking embodiment, sending the Conscious You into embodiment.

I know that for many of you who are focused down here in the physical realm, experiencing the world as it is, experiencing various traumas, carrying some of these wounds with you from past lives, even going back to your birth trauma, it can seem like this is kind of a raw deal for the Conscious You. Because the Conscious You is the one who is down here in embodiment experiencing the world through the four lower bodies, having to make choices based on all of these chaotic conditions, and the Conscious You is the one who can feel really, really hurt by conditions, while the I AM Presence is sitting up there, not experiencing all of the pain and trouble that the Conscious You is experiencing. And it is perfectly understandable that you have that reaction. I certainly had it when I was in embodiment. All ascended masters who have been in embodiment, especially on a dense planet like earth, we have all had to go through that reaction. 

Even though this was a long, seemingly sidetrack, it relates to the Heart Chakra because while you cannot take the raw energy waves of a lower vibration into the secret chamber of the heart, you can take certain images. And one of the images you can take is this sense that you were the one who got the hard end of the deal. You are the one who is here in embodiment, you are the one who is experiencing all of this. And why did the I AM Presence allow this? And why did the ascended masters allow this? And why have they not protected you from all of the things that have happened? It is a very understandable reaction. Now I am using specific words here. Each of you may have other words that are more meaningful to you. But we can basically say that at some point in the past, when you were exposed to what we have called the cosmic birth trauma or other traumas, you had a certain reaction in the secret chamber of your heart. And when you had that reaction, that there was something that happened that should not have happened, you inevitably felt that you want this never to happen again. And therefore, you want to protect yourself from this happening again. And as a result of that, you want to close the valves in your heart chakra so that no thoughts or ideas can enter the secret chamber of the heart from earth. Again, it is a very understandable reaction that we all have had, those of us who have ascended from earth. It is almost inevitable. I do not even really need to say almost, because given the density of the planet, the darkness, the amount of fallen beings on the planet, it is inevitable. 

So, a long explanation I know, but it is important to set the foundation for what we will teach you during this conference. So, you see here that in the secret chamber of the heart is your basic reaction to earth, the Conscious You’s basic reaction to earth, but it is sealed behind the closed heart chakra, the valves in the heart chakra. This means that the Conscious You is outside those valves. And therefore, you cannot see that reaction. You can, if you have started clearing your heart chakra, you may see it in glimpses. And some of you have already seen it, you have already sensed that you have a certain reaction to earth. And this is because you have opened enough of the valves that you can get at least a partial sensation of what is the basic way that you look at earth.

The essence of the spiritual path

This is the deepest dynamic of what is going on in the heart chakra. That when you look at your heart chakra from the outside, when the heart chakra is closed, you cannot see that reaction to earth. And if you look at human beings out there in the world who are not on a spiritual path, they have no idea of what I am saying. If I was giving this teaching in some kind of public forum where people would be exposed to it, which would have to be by force, as people would not even voluntarily connect to the teaching— but if that were to happen, that people were exposed to it, they would have no idea what I am talking about. When I say that you have a basic reaction to life on earth, they would have no way to even relate to what I am saying. Because their basic reaction is the only way they think you can react to life. 

You who are spiritual people, based on all the teachings we have given about separate selves, subconscious selves, that cause you to react, you can see, or at least you can switch your mind and begin to see, that although the reaction that you had was understandable and inevitable, it was only a reaction. When I say it was inevitable that you reacted, I do not mean that the reaction itself was inevitable and therefore can never be changed. You reacted, the Conscious You reacted, by making a choice to accept a certain idea, a certain view. By becoming conscious of that choice, you can consciously change it. And that is of course the whole point of all of our teachings, is that everything in your life, in your consciousness, in your being, is subject to free will. And as we have said many times, there is no choice you can make with your free will that you cannot change with your free will. And this of course is what the vast majority of people on earth are unable to grasp at their present level of consciousness. They, of course, also made a choice to accept a certain reaction to earth. But it is buried so deep that they have no concept of what it really means. And therefore, they think that the way they react to life is the only way to react to life. 

Now, some people have started to become more aware, and they can see: “Oh, other people are actually not reacting to certain situations the way I am.” And therefore, they could become open to a teaching that would show them that they have some very, very deep reactions to earth, but that not everyone has the same reaction. It can, of course, be helpful to you, even as spiritual people, to talk about your basic reaction to earth, so you can see that all of you did not have the same reaction. And when you see that other people reacted to earth differently than you did, you suddenly gain the perspective—as I said, it was inevitable that you reacted—but your specific reaction was not inevitable. And therefore, it was just a choice you made. It may have been a very understandable choice, but it was just a choice. And because it was just a choice, you can change it by making a more aware choice. 

What are you ready for?

This, right here, is the essence of the spiritual path. Very, very few teachings on the planet teach this. Very, very few teach this. Why? Because the vast majority of spiritual people are not ready to take this kind of responsibility for themselves. You are, or you would not be here. And why are you ready? Even if your conscious mind does not feel like it is ready, even if you still have some subconscious self that is kicking and screaming, why are you ready?  Because you have certain questions in your mind that nothing else answered, but you could not ignore or deny the questions. So you kept looking until you found this teaching. I am not saying this to give you any sense of pride that you are more advanced than all other spiritual students. We have seen what this does to even ascended master students when they think they have the highest teaching on the planet. It is not a matter of evaluating high or low. It is a matter of evaluating what are you ready for. What are you ready for? And when the student is ready, the teacher appears. So, have I appeared to you? So, you are ready. Now, you may have some separate selves that you need to work through before you can start looking at the deeper attitude to life that I am talking about here. And this, of course, we will help you look at. 

How do you look at love?

Just to, perhaps, go a little bit down to a more practical level, the heart chakra. Again, what is it? Well, at a certain level, of course, it is the open door for the energies from your I AM Presence. But it is, of course, also an outgoing chakra, like all of the chakras. It radiates light out. And, of course, it is associated with the third ray of love. 

If we now step away from the higher perspective I have given you, step to a more practical level. And you as an individual student, you are contemplating, what is the status of my heart chakra? How can I start getting a feel for what I need to heal in my heart chakra? In other words, instead of looking at this higher perspective I have given you, more practical, what do I need to start to heal? And the first thing you of course can look at is the way you look at love, the way you relate to love, the way you think about love, the way you feel about love. 

And this, of course, can most easily be seen in your relationships with other people. Naturally, this is a very complex topic. We have given teachings about relationships before, but it is an extremely complex topic. But I will attempt to give you a tool that can help you at least get started on seeing what is blocking your individual heart chakra. Because at the, we might say, surface level of the heart chakra, what is blocking your heart chakra is the experiences you have had with love relationships. I am not just talking about a personal love relationship, I am also talking about parents, children, other people, good friends, basically anybody that you have a deeper relationship with, it is a love relationship. 

The Mother Mary’s meditation 

What I want to give you as a practical tool here, is that I want to take you through a meditation. And at the end of the meditation, I want you to take the notepads that you should all have had on your chairs and tables, and a pen, so I want you to take that out now and be ready. Because at the end of the meditation I want you to write down the first thing that comes to you. Do not analyze. We did this at the last conference in Estonia. Do not analyze, do not think. There is no wrong answer. You do not have to share this with anyone. It is an exercise to help you get some feel for what is blocking your heart chakra. 

Now, I am asking you to close your eyes. We are first focusing on your physical body, sitting here in a chair in this room. You are mentally now stepping back from the body, stepping up. You are looking at your body from the outside, in your mind, and you realize: “I am not the body, I am mind.” Now you step back again. You are looking at your emotional body. Maybe there are some turbulent feelings. Maybe your emotional body is more calm with some undercurrents. But again, you are not the emotions. You are not your emotions. And now, you mentally step back, and up, and now you are above your mental body. 

There are probably all kinds of thoughts going on in your mind right now. But you are above it. You are looking down. You do not need to engage the thoughts, because you are not your thoughts. You are more than your thoughts. You step up again. You look at your identity. You are a man or a woman. You are this nationality. You grew up in this place. But you are more than all of this. You do not need to engage it. You do not need to go inside of it. You can actually exist without that outer identity that you have taken on. For what are you when all comes down to it? You are that Conscious You. You are not the lower bodies. You are not your feelings, thoughts and your sense of identity. You are not who you see yourself as being. We have called it pure awareness, because you are awareness, but there are no characteristics. That is why you can go into your four lower bodies. If you had some kind of characteristic or structure as the Conscious You, you could not go into your identity body and feel like a human being on earth. And you know you are not a human being; you are more than that. 

Now, from this perspective, you are looking down, and you are allowing to arise in your mind some kind of love relationship you have had in this lifetime. Not all of them. Just one comes to your mind. You are not thinking about it. You are not going into it, looking at it from the inside. You are just looking at it from the outside. And now, when I count down, when I get to zero, you will write whatever comes to you about that relationship. Do not think about what should come to you. Do not start analyzing. Just keep your attention gently on the relationship and be ready to write down the first thing that comes to you.

So I am counting. Ten, nine, eight, seven, six, five, four, three, two, one, one half, one quarter, one eighth and now write (3 minute pause) 

Now stop writing. 

You can always, when you have a quiet moment during this conference or after the conference, you can look at what you wrote, if you managed to write anything. If you did not, it is perfectly fine. You can do the exercise again and see what comes to you.

The highest gift you can give

But what you will see, for many of you, is that you have a certain view of love relationships. For many of you, it will be related to trust, that you feel that you have been hurt in love relationships and therefore, you find it difficult to trust other people. Why is it you cannot trust? You may say: I have been hurt. Yes. But why have you been hurt? What was it that caused the hurt? 

And now we need to go back, and we need to look at the heart chakra. What is it that the heart chakra is? The heart chakra is the open door—ideally, the open door for the I AM Presence. What is coming from the I AM Presence, through the heart chakra, being expressed in the world? Well, I talked about there is the energy that is the raw energy, the energy waves that can carry a higher form of energy, thoughts, feelings, so forth, but they can also carry the individuality of your I AM Presence. As the I AM Presence is sending you energy, those energy waves are imbued with the individuality of the I AM Presence. And this means what? It means that when you first came to earth, you came here to express the individuality of your I AM Presence. You received that energy that gave you, well, first of all, consciousness. You are conscious because of the energy. It filled your identity body, your mental body, your emotional body, even your physical, so that you had the energy to do something, to express something, to be creative, to give some kind of a gift to the world. And that gift was individual to each of you. And the highest gift you can give is really, the individuality of your I AM Presence as it was at the time. 

Now, if you look at some earlier teachings that were given about the I AM Presence, you can get the impression from these teachings that the I AM Presence is like this perfect being up there in the spiritual realm. It is almost like a god-like figure that knows everything and has the answers to everything. But as we have started telling you not so long ago, the I AM Presence is not ascended. That is why it is sending the Conscious You. The I AM Presence is learning. At the time that the I AM Presence decides to send a Conscious You, it has a certain individuality. Why is it sending the Conscious You? To expand that individuality, to grow its sense of self, to transcend itself. That means that the I AM Presence is not the same being today that originally sent you into embodiment on earth. It has transcended itself many times as a result of the experiences you have had. 

The lost connection and fear of rejection

Here you are, Conscious You, in embodiment, you are exposed to this trauma, you close your heart chakra. Why did you do that? Because the Conscious You felt that it, as it saw itself, and as I said, you descend with the sense that you are somewhat separated—you are not in separation and duality, but you are separated from the I AM Presence seeing yourself as the separate being—you felt hurt, and you did not want your I AM Presence to be hurt like you had been. Therefore, you shut down your heart chakra, thinking, perhaps not really consciously, but at least at some level, so that the I AM Presence would not be hurt. 

What has this got to do with your love relationships? Well, what is it you do when you are in a close relationship with another human being? You are exposing yourself. You can hide from a lot of people; you can hide who you are. But in a love relationship, it is much more difficult. Some people still manage to hide themselves pretty well, but it is definitely more difficult. You see, you were hurt by the world, you shut down your heart chakra, which means what? It means you lose your connection to your I AM Presence. Now you do not feel the love of your I AM Presence, so you seek love from other people. But in order to get that love, you have to open yourself and be vulnerable. And then when you get disappointed by other people, what do you feel? You feel that they judged or rejected your individuality. The very being that you are, you feel that you were rejected for who you are. And that is why you are afraid to open yourself to other people, because you are afraid that they will reject you, as you have been rejected in the past. You are afraid to expose yourself for who you are. Originally, this is because the Conscious You felt that the individuality of the I AM Presence was rejected.

Seeking acceptance in a love relationship

Now, of course, you do not have a clear view of that individuality, you have created an individuality in your identity, mental and emotional bodies. That is, of course, in many cases, you have these separate selves that are based on separation. They are, of course, much more vulnerable to being hurt. But you see the dynamic. In a love relationship, you cannot fully hide who you are and you are so afraid of being rejected for who you are. What is it that people seek in a love relationship? They are seeking a person who will accept them for who they are, and not criticize, not condemn, not try to change them, not blame them. And it is very understandable. It is what everybody seeks in a love relationship. Some people may have some separate selves that cause them to seek this by controlling others. But even behind these control games, everybody is actually seeking acceptance for who they are. 

Now, this can take individual forms. That is why some of you will have written down something that may seem like it does not quite connect to what I am saying. But if you look at it more deeply, you will find that behind it, the specific form that it has for you, there is this push-pull of the desire to be accepted for who you are, and the fear of being rejected for who you are. 

The Hollywood fantasy

Now, I know this has already been a very complex release that will take some contemplation. I do not expect you to really grasp everything that I have released here by just listening to it once. But I want to take it and give it a slight turn, and hopefully make it more practical. Because what you can do with this exercise that I have given you, you can give it again and again, and get more clarity about what it is for you individually that is the basic dynamic in love relationships. How do you actually look at love? What does love specifically mean for you? What is it as an energy? And you have all been affected by this Hollywood happy ever after, finding the ideal partner. And I understand why you are laughing. But if you could see how deeply these projections from the movie industry and the book industry have been ingrained in the collective consciousness, you would be shocked. It is so deeply ingrained. And it is deliberately done by the fallen beings, because they know this keeps people seeking something outside themselves that you can only find inside yourself. 

What you can do is contemplate how the way you look at love causes you to look out there. And what is it you are looking for? You will have individual views of these individual words that you will use to describe it, but you are looking for something in a love relationship. And now there are two aspects of this. The one aspect is that you have the separate selves that are looking for something that could never be found. 

Why? Because the separate self is based on the duality consciousness. And what we have said many times, what the messenger has explained in some of his YouTube videos about non duality and duality is that you have two polarities that are relative to each other. But the duality consciousness takes one of them and elevates them to the status of being the absolute. If you talk about love, it is the absolute love. That is the Hollywood fantasy, the ultimate love. And all you need to do is find the right person, the one and only. But you see, it can never be found because no dualistic polarity can ever be ultimate, they are always relative. They can never be fully satisfied. They can never fill you. That is why I said earlier, why have you found this teaching? Because there were questions you could not find answers to, but you could not just drop them. You had to keep looking. Well, that is what you have to do in this world. And that is why you can never find another person who is going to fill all of your needs. You are on an impossible quest. 

Looking for love outside yourself

The other aspect of this is, of course, that you have some unresolved subconscious selves. And any person you are going to find will have their own unresolved subconscious selves. When the honeymoon is over, the selves would start clashing. And when you have a subconscious self that is clashing with a subconscious self of another person, this will actuate this deeper sense that you were rejected in the past for who you are. Because you are inside the self, you are now identified with the self, it become part of your emotional, mental and identity body. When the other person’s separate self rejects your separate self, you feel it is rejecting you. And this is just inevitable. Look at relationships, the ones you have had, look at other people. It is inevitable. 

But what does it come from? It comes from the fact that you are looking for something outside yourself that you can never find outside yourself. I am not here saying that you cannot have fulfilling love relationships, but you cannot have them if you are so identified with these separate selves. And this means that you need to, instead of looking for this perfect love outside yourself, you need to redirect and go within and realize where is the love going to come from that is going to fulfill you. It is going to come from your I AM Presence. It cannot come from anywhere else. You need to open your heart chakra so you can feel that love. Some of you have already felt it. Some of you have felt it and you are not aware of it.Some of you have only had a brief glimpse. Some of you have not felt it because your heart chakra is still too closed. And we will of course give you other tools for opening the heart chakra. 

No need to protect the I AM Presence

But what is sort of the conclusion that I want you to take away from this release? It is simply this, the Conscious You does not need to protect the I AM Presence. You think you do. It is very deeply ingrained in all of us after we have been exposed to these traumas. We think we have to protect the Presence. But what did I say in the beginning? The I AM Presence does not experience your life on earth the way you do as the Conscious You. Even though you have been deeply hurt, the Conscious You will not be hurt by that experience. The first thing you need to recognize here is that you, as the Conscious You, you do not need to protect the I AM Presence. You do not need to close your heart chakra in order to prevent anything from coming from the world, going into the secret chamber of your heart and up to the Presence. It is not necessary because the I AM Presence will not experience it the way you do. You may be traumatized by an experience but the I AM Presence will not be traumatized by that experience. It will process it in a different way than you can do as the Conscious You or at least that you could do at the time and therefore, it has an entirely different experience. 

Now, when the Conscious You starts clearing out the subconscious selves, you can connect to the I AM Presence and you can come to experience how the I AM Presence looked at a certain traumatic situation from this life or past lives. And that means the Conscious You can now come to experience how the I AM Presence experienced that situation and that will be the ultimate healing for the Conscious You. But you cannot do that as long as you are trying to protect the I AM Presence from feeling the way you are feeling because then you are blocking yourself from experiencing the love from your I AM Presence and therefore, you are stuck. You are in a CATCH-22. One way to break it is to realize you do not need to protect the I AM Presence but the other aspect of it, the Alpha to the Omega of not protecting the I AM Presence, is to realize what we have said so many times.

Think about how many times in the last few years we have said something like this. Please do not project at us or your I AM Presence that we judge you the way the fallen beings do. We are not in duality. Your I AM Presence is not in duality. It does not condemn the Conscious You for any choice the Conscious You has ever made. It does not matter what you have done. It does not matter what mistakes you think you have made. The I AM Presence does not judge you. It loves you unconditionally and it is willing, in fact it is constantly radiating that unconditional love to the Conscious You. But as long as you think you either have to protect the Presence or you have to protect yourself from the judgment of the Presence, the angry God in the sky, that is another image of the fallen beings. Then how can you experience the love of the I AM Presence or the love of the ascended masters? And therefore, you are caught on this treadmill of seeking to get this ultimate love from this world that you can only receive from the world beyond this.

The love from above

And you can be in this state for many, many lifetimes which most people on the planet have been. But many of you have even in past lifetimes started to go beyond it. You have found something that you loved more than anything in this world. Why do you have these questions that cause you to keep seeking until you found the teaching? Because there is something you love more than anything in this world. And that something that you love more, loves you more. Because that something is your I AM Presence and the ascended masters that are your spiritual teachers. Even the ascended masters that created your I AM Presence out of their beings. As we have said, we who are the most known ascended masters working with earth, we did not create your I AM Presence because we are not so much older beings than you are. But there are of course ascended masters who created your I AM Presence originally and my I AM Presence and Jesus’ I AM Presence and so forth. And those are ultimately what you long back for. Those are your spiritual parents.

We who are the ascended masters working with earth are working with earth because we ascended from earth. And therefore, we know how difficult of a planet it is and we can serve as examples —what one has done all can do. But there are ascended masters who created your individual I AM Presence out of their own being. And they are also radiating unconditional love to you through your I AM Presence. And that is what you love more than anything on earth. And they love you more than anything on earth. In fact, they love you more than any other being because you are out of their own beings. And that is ultimately what you seek. 

The love of Mother Mary

Again, I know I have given you a very big mouthful. It may as we have said before seem like too much for the beginning of a conference. But we have a certain teaching we want to bring out and we had to set a foundation so we have something to build on. I trust that you can come back to this teaching, study it, listen to it, read it, do the exercise and gradually come to see what is the immediate thing that blocks your heart chakra, namely your approach to love relationships.

With this I have given you what I wanted to give you in this installment. I know this has been more of a teaching dictation touching upon many complex topics that might appeal to the mind more than the heart. But I trust that behind it you can feel what motivates me for giving this teaching. And what motivates me is that I love you, each and every one of you. I cannot love you the same way as the ascended masters who created your I AM Presence. I cannot love you the same way as your I AM Presence. But I can certainly love you as the representative of the Divine Mother for each one of you is in a spiritual sense my children. And I love each one of you and I have absolutely no condemnation, no judgment for any of you, for anything you have done or gone through. There is only love. There is only a desire to help you transcend. 

You tend to think that it was easier for me to ascend than it is for you. You tend to think it was easier for Jesus or Saint Germain, but it was not. Why was it not? What do you have to overcome in order to ascend? Your individual psychology. Do you really think that it was easier for me to overcome my psychology than it is for you to overcome your psychology? How could it be? I had created as the Conscious You my psychology and therefore, it was as difficult for me to see through my psychology, my separate selves as it is for you. Because I was looking at mine from the inside just as you are looking at yours from the inside. I know exactly what you are all going through and I have no other desire than to see you be free of it and rise as I know it is possible to rise. I have no other desire than to see you overcome these selves that cause you to reject my love because you think you are not worthy of it. But as this messenger went through a long time ago, a process of realizing that unconditional love cannot have conditions. Your mind rebels against this idea because anything that comes from duality wants to say: “But there must be conditions. God must be the angry God. There must be criteria you need to fulfill in order to ascend.”

But you see, in order to ascend you have to transcend the mind that wants to create conditions because that is duality. And therefore, you have to come to see the conditions that you have created that you think keep you out of the ascended state. That you think because you see them from the inside or perhaps you do not see them because you are inside. But they all mean absolutely nothing. They only have the reality that you give them and they will only fully disappear when you step outside of that self and see that it is not real. But you are real. The core of your being is real. And that is why, as is said in this invocation, there can come that realization: that which is real cannot be affected by that which is unreal. With this I leave you enveloped in my love.

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