11. Get off the treadmill 
of competition

Ascended Master Jesus through Kim Michaels.

In this key we will deal with the spiritual poison of envy and jealousy. The Dhyani Buddha who is the antidote to this poison is called Amogasiddhi. His wisdom is the all-accomplishing wisdom and his mantra is:




As you study this key, tune in to the Buddha and repeat his mantra when you feel the energies we are dealing with.

As you will have learned by now, every human quality is the perversion of a divine quality, and the divine quality that corresponds to envy and jealousy is the desire to do well, the desire to achieve victory. There is a certain irony to the fact that the students who are most susceptible to envy and jealousy are the ones who have the greatest desire to do well. In other words, these are the most eager and dedicated students, the ones who truly want to follow their spiritual teacher and meet all requirements on the path. The problem comes in when these beings develop an attachment to doing well, an unbalanced desire to do well, an attachment to measuring “doing well” by the results achieved in this world.

Where does an imbalance come from? You will have realized by now that any imbalance comes from the illusion of separation. This illusion creates a “space” or distance between your conscious self and your Creator, which inevitably leads to fear—the fear that you could be lost. It is in this space, this no-God’s land of fear, that the consciousness of anti-christ can exist and give rise to countless illusions that are designed to hide the basic fact that no part of God can be apart from God.

Since you are now beyond the beginning stages of this course, let me go right to the core of the issue. God is infinite, in fact a better word for God would be “The Infinite.” Your conscious self is an individualization of the infinite Creator. As such, you are both infinite and an individual. As we have said, the conscious self is what it thinks it is. Your conscious self is created as an individual being, and as such it will look at the world from the perspective of an individual being. We might say that your conscious self is the Creator looking at creation from a particular vantage point—instead of the overall, omnipresent perspective of the Creator. God is looking at the world from the inside—through the prism of your identity. Because of that, the conscious self has the ability to instantly switch its perspective and see the overall perspective of the Creator.

Imagine that you are standing on a tall hill and have a commanding panoramic view. You now put a pair of strong binoculars in front of your eyes. Suddenly, you cannot see most of the view but see only a small slice of the whole. Furthermore, what you see is greatly magnified and thus seems more important. Yet you still have the potential to remove the binoculars and take in the entire view. The conscious self can always switch its perspective and see the world from God’s perspective—it is often called a mystical experience but there is nothing mystical about it. It only seems mystical because most people have forgotten they are more than their separate selves, and thus they think they can see the world only through the “binoculars” of the separate self. Originally – meaning before you fell into duality – these binoculars showed simply a magnified view of reality. However, after you became influenced by duality, your personal binoculars showed a distorted or colored view of everything.

The conscious self can – so to speak – merge itself back into the Infinite from which it emerged—without losing its individuality. It can be both infinite and an individual at the same time—it can know that it IS the Infinite expressing itself through an individual identity. It is the Infinite expressing itself in the finite world. The importance of this is, of course, that when the conscious self knows that it is one with the Infinite, it can never be trapped in the illusion of separation. For the very nature of this illusion is that there is a finite world that is either set apart from God or is all that exists. When the conscious self believes in this illusion, it feels trapped in the finite world, and it then becomes vulnerable to all kinds of illusions for how to avoid this sense of being trapped—including the illusion that it needs to be better than other beings.

In reality, the only true antidote is the realization that although you live in a world that appears to be finite, even the finite world is created from the infinite energy and Being of the Creator. Thus, nothing is truly separated from the Infinite, which means there is no reason to feel trapped in the finite world. Simply go into the kingdom of the Infinite that is within you and reconnect to your true Being. When you realize you are an expression of the Infinite, how can you feel trapped in the finite world? For you will no longer believe in the illusion of separation, namely that the finite world is separated from God or that there is no God. Instead, you will do what you came for, namely to let the Infinite express its infinity through you, thereby bringing the finite world closer to infinity.


As Maitreya explains, a new lifestream is naturally focused on exploring its individuality, especially as it relates to expressing its creative abilities in the world where it is born. Yet a new lifestream always starts in a cosmic schoolroom under the tutelage of a spiritual teacher. Thus, a new lifestream has some awareness that it is part of something greater than the individual self and it has the loving guidance of an enlightened teacher. The goal of the teacher is to take the lifestream to the point where it becomes spiritually self-sufficient by becoming one with the Infinite—which is what some call enlightenment. Enlightenment means true self-knowledge, meaning that you fully know and accept that you are the Infinite expressing itself – through the prism of individuality – in the finite world.

The reason why you are not enlightened and why you are studying this course in Christhood is that you have come to believe in the illusion of separation. This illusion creates the sense that there is a gap between the conscious self and the Infinite, and this makes it seem like your individuality is what sets you apart from God, rather than making you a facet of the diamond of God’s Being. In other words, when you believe in the illusion of separation, your individuality becomes a stumbling block that makes you think you are separated from God or that you will have to lose your individuality in order to become one with God (as some unenlightened teachers teach). In other words, you now begin to believe that individuality is synonymous with separation—that your individuality sets you apart from the Infinite and from other individualizations of the Infinite.

My point here is that in every spiritual school there are always some students who want to do well and some that are a bit more easy-going. When those who want to do well begin to believe in the illusion of separation, they become susceptible to three of the main illusions created by the consciousness of anti-christ:

  • You are a separate being living in a world with other separate beings. You have your free will, but so do all other beings. And since their will is separate from your will, it is possible that they will do something that hurts you or makes you look bad in the eyes of the teacher/God. In other words, free will means separate wills that can only create conflict.
  • By becoming focused on your own separation from others, it becomes very easy to believe in the need to compare yourself to others. In other words, in order to do well and impress the teacher, you need to do better than others. This gives rise to the sense of competition and the need to rise above others—the desire to be a favorite son.
  • When you believe in the illusion of separation, you inevitably come to focus attention on the material world. Thus, you become susceptible to the basic illusion of the outer path, namely that you gain entry into the kingdom of God by doing something in this world. In other words, the way to impress the teacher – the key to “doing well” or being saved – is to achieve certain results in this world. Of course, almost anything you can achieve in this world will depend on the choices of other beings, and this opens up another level of not simply competition but the need to control others. Some beings now become trapped in the further illusion that in order to make themselves look better than others, they not only have to raise up themselves, they also have to keep others down. Instead of focusing on bettering themselves, some beings now begin to focus on holding back others. And thus, the ongoing dualistic struggle is born.


When a being begins to believe in the illusion of separation and the dualistic illusions described above, that being now begins to believe that comparisons are not only possible but necessary. Do you truly understand what I just said?

Your outer mind has been programmed for your entire life – even for lifetimes – to believe in comparisons and to – automatically and without conscious thought – perform comparisons of many different kinds. You have grown up in a society that is based on and encourages the consciousness of comparisons, from grades in school to the social status or wealth of your parents to the importance of your nation or religion compared to others. In other words, your outer mind is so thoroughly programmed to engage in comparisons in the material world that it will require a major effort for your conscious self to disentangle itself from this consciousness – this energy vortex, this black hole – of comparisons.

As a student of the Living Christ, you are walking the path toward absolute spiritual freedom, and one aspect of this is that you rise above the consciousness of comparisons. Why is this important? Well, it should be fairly obvious that if you are to escape the spiritual poison of envy and jealousy, you have to rise above the illusion of comparison. For is it not obvious that envy springs from the illusion that it is possible or relevant to compare yourself to other people or to some standard defined in this world? If there is no comparison, how could there be a basis for envy?

Now consider the commonly known fact that although a snowstorm may produce billions of snowflakes, no two of them are alike. This has two implications that are relevant for our discussion. One is that a snowflake is a relatively simple structure. A co-creator with God is an almost infinitely more complex “structure” than a snowflake. In other words, the potential to create individual uniqueness is far higher in a complex than a simple structure. So if God can create individual uniqueness in as simple of a structure as snowflakes, do you see that it is far easier for God to create uniqueness in co-creators? My point being that you are created as an absolutely unique individual. There is no one like you in the entire world of form. You have the potential to bring a gift to planet Earth that no other being could bring. You are truly unique.

Now for the second point. Imagine you meet a scientist who has made it his life’s work to study snowflakes. This isn’t necessarily odd, but this scientist has taken his study in a peculiar direction. He has set up an entire system for comparing snowflakes and classifying them into “good” and “bad” flakes. He has created a scale upon which the value of snowflakes can be measured, and at the top of the scale is the perfect snowflake, which it is his life’s goal to discover. Thus, he spends his entire life on a quest that is not aimed at helping humankind make better use of snow but is aimed entirely at finding the perfect snowflake and sorting snowflakes based on his self-created scale of value.

You would probably think this was an odd way to spend your life, and there are several reasons for this. One is that it is not a useful activity—it doesn’t have any practical value that helps improve life on this planet. Another is that it is an impossible quest. When you think about it, you realize that snowflakes are unique, so what is the point of comparing them? How can you make comparisons between objects that are unique? And what is the point of assigning values to something like snowflakes? Can you really talk about good and bad snowflakes? And how could there be a perfect snowflake when they are all unique, since perfection implies a comparison to something imperfect?

Well, what is the point in making comparisons between people, when each person is a unique individual? What is the point in assigning values to people’s uniqueness? And can you really talk about good and bad people according to some standard in this world? Is there any value judgment in the mind of God—who, after all, created all co-creators as unique individuals?

NOTE: The rest of this dictation is available in the book: Master Keys to Personal Christhoood.

Copyright © 2008 Kim Michaels